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2011-12-30T06:43:00.000-08:00

Love, it keeps what inside of you warm doesn't it?

Love. Such a thing isn't it ? It's an easy thing to find . Everywhere, everyone and everything is filled with love. There were sad break ups, but also surprising hook ups. It makes a person life much more wonderful and give a new whole lot of meaning. Love can be quite dangerous too. It can drive one's mind to be one hell of a mess.

It depends on both lovers, can they survive the waves ? can they manage the boat they are riding ?

Love has done many things to the world. It gives hope to everyone who need it. It doesn't always have to be partners. Love exists too in family, friends and also deep within pure heart. A sympathy towards others, that can be called love too (maybe).

But what love has done to me this year ?

It ripped my heart.

like my expression above, i was dumb like a cow to love

This year i found two love. Each took six months. I was tricked and thought that i finally found the one. My mind had gone crazy just to make sure things were going to be great.

But i was a fool. I should know better not to trust love that easily. One moment love took me to a very blissful feelings, and next, i was crushed, belched, dragged away, torn apart, and all those heart break words. My heart cried, my soul was dying and screaming with mental pain.

I thought the sign was obvious, i thought everything was going to be the same as i expected. But i was wrong. All of it was just a game. I took love's bait, and now it's jeering at me.

I wanted to believe love finally knock on my door. I wanted to feel the real feeling of caring for someone. To be beside somebody who i really care. To be with someone who could make my life seems worth it. But that's all just a big joke wasn't it ?

Can't i have those beautiful moments you spend with someone you love ?

Maybe it's not the right time. I kept telling myself to wait. But my heart just won't do it.
Should i give up? Let love take me wherever it wants to? Feel the sweetness despite the dreadful things ahead ?

I'm no master at love. But mentally, I am tired of all this.
I don't hate you love. But why ?!

Yet thanks to love, even though now I'm full with misery, at least some spark ignited in me.
Something that made my heart tickles. That moment i felt something more than joy.
So love, make some wonder, please.

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2011-12-29T07:07:00.000-08:00

Today i went to an indoor ice rink which located at Taman Anggrek Mall, for ice skating (duh).

It's holiday so the place was bound to be crowded. Fortunately, the line wasn't that long so after half an hour, i was already entering the place with my group (which no less than thirteen people).

I forgot some of the basics since its my second time skating. After 'observing-those-who-can' and flapping-like an awkward chicken, i managed to get the hold of it. The easy part was to maintain balance. Move on further, was the skating part. Push your right leg, slide your left leg, push your left leg, slide your right leg. Well that's a mantra in my head. Yes i had my fall and butt-kiss-the-ground, but i now i could skate faster than ever! (imo).

Two objectives accomplished, next : brake. Really, i didn't remember how many people i bumped cause there were a lot ! Poor them, and me. I would fall or do-freak-moves-to-maintain-balance, but mostly i fell to the ground.

In the rink, i met well, many kind of people. There were people who seemed to be afraid to move and rather hold to the safety bar around the rink. Others were taking their baby steps alone or with their friends or family. Some were confident enough to go further. Many lay on the floor, some smiling, laughing, crying and don't forget shrieking (including me). A couple of kind people gave support and words of courage. One or two, seemed to boast off their talent.

But all of them had fun ( i think).

And here, again, i try to connect things in my life to my not-so-wise opinion.

This year i discovered more human types and personalities from my daily life. Each person has this one part that make themselves different from one to another. Such as bright minds, amazing talent, bad attitude, and many many more. But people seemed to think these differences make us need to show who is on top and who isn't.

People with all sort of goodness (fame, money, authority,ability) think that they are in higher position rather than others who have imperfection. They try to create a world where everything is perfect. But people, please do learn, that nobody is perfect.

In my opinion, all sort of person in this world was created for a reason. Everyone has an important role in this life, whether its a big one, or a small one. Everyone matters. Maybe some people are meant to be on top, maybe some people are happy to be doing small things. There's no need for discrimination against other.

We live here as equal. Give respect to other, HELP them, if you think they are wrong or not quite right, don't insult them or worse, try to bring them down in evil ways. We live in the same place, planet Earth. Can you feel we're falling apart as a human being ? We need to unite, not trying to fight each other.

Like an ice rink, we all moving in the same circle, some will fall, some will move gracefully. But we are still one big group. To be able to move, we have to trust each other. And always, don't forget to have some fun, or better, to share happiness.

Night.

My leg still hurts from moving too many.

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